I’m thinking, tonight, about forgiveness…about letting go and moving forward.
I’m thinking about how bitterness can keep you stuck, like quick-sand – the more you fight and struggle, the more you sink.
I’ve felt bogged down in the mire of hurt and un-forgiveness…many times. And many times I’ve had to renew my resolve to look ahead, not behind…or even down at my present predicament.
I suppose it’s innate to the human condition to focus on what is…or what seems to be, rather than what lies ahead – to lose sight of the possible while running a constant mental list of the impossibilities.
But, peace comes after the letting go, and the rescuing comes after the surrender.
So, I choose to look forward…”forgetting what lies behind, I fix my eyes on the Author and Finisher of my faith”.
And what the Enemy means to use to harm me, I will surrender to God to use for His good. There is no room for bitterness in that.
I’ve had four babies – so I know what it means to “fix my eyes”, to focus on the goal and not the pain. It’s a choice of the will.
Many times my strength fails me, when I notice the “quick-sand”, when I feel the pain – and, it’s then that my struggle can cause me to look down. But, there’s no safety there…no peace, only panic.
It is in these times of struggle that I remember – “Fix your eyes. Look ahead. Let go. Be still. Forgive…surrender…know peace.” Then comes the rescue.
And I am freed to run to my Rescuer and make His mercy mine.