On a Monday
There are many things I probably shouldn’t do on a Monday…top of the list is blogging. I shouldn’t do anything that requires coherent thought, or any semblance of rationale….(or the use of “normal” words that make sense…but I digress).
I tend to use large and inane words when I’m exhausted…I also tend to ramble and talk in circles - hence the reason for my hesitancy to blog…
…but here I am blogging.
Oh well, I should at least attempt to write something meaningful.
I have so many thoughts rolling around in my head lately - there is so much to process. Byron’s book is coming out soon, and it’s so weird to think of even a little of our story being put down in print for the world to read - especially since I haven’t even worked through all that’s happened over the past couple of years my own self…
But that’s the way it is with ministry - you have to deal with things as they arise…often right in front of an audience. It can be brutal, at times…but you have no choice but to walk through it. There’s no way around…only through.
So, in retrospect, I wish I had possessed more grace. I wish I had not let things “get to me” or even, at times, get the best of me. I wish I had been a better example of peace. I wish I had not let my children see me angry. I wish I hadn’t struggled so much with what others think. I wish I had been a better support to Byron. I wish I hadn’t been so rebellious at times…
Oh well, there can always be a long list of wishes on a Monday. For me, it just goes with the day.
But, overall, I’m okay. It’s Monday (not my favorite day) and I’m okay. It’s May (not my favorite month) and I’m okay. I’m alright and tomorrow I’ll be even better…and next month, better than that.
So it’s all good.
And that’s good enough…especially on a Monday.
peace.
We always have I wish I had… But what matters is that we learn and grow through the mistakes. It is beautiful to watch you grow in Jesus and be an example to others.
Thanks for the reminder that there is not another way around. We must go through the trials. And in that reminder it helps me to remember to allow God to work on me. Don’t fight Him. He will walk with me, I don’t have to go it alone. Although sometimes I tend to go off on my own and forget that He wants to help me.
Missed being with you all this past weekend but have had a great time with my mom, dad, sisters and niece and nephew.
You are an inspriration to all of us. I know what we went through. I can’t imagine what you had to indure.
We prayed for you and Byron every night that God give you stregnth to get through the deep valley we were in as a church.
Thank you
Hey … today is another day! Try not to beat yourself up anymore for things you can’t do anything about.
You have today. You can do something about the decisions you make today. That is the cool thing about making mistakes and failing … you can learn from what you wish you “shoulda coulda woulda” done and do it today. That’s what matters most.
… I should listen to myself more often :op